Elements Of Kirk: Calling Me Home

CALLING ME HOME

I started into Life, with enjoyment...a Toddler's sense of thrill;

Get me off this formula Mom, I think I've had my fill...

"Give this Kid some solid food", the Doctor said, "The crying will calm down!";

Ravenous, I put it away, I'm ready for another round!

As life went on, my early years, a mixed blessing of playing charade;

Taking beatings from my Father, a Man that never quite had it made.

Not that he wasn't a good Man, just a bit disappointed at himself;

He had visions of much success, leading up to obvious wealth.

I patterned things I did, with making new one's as I went along;

As I studied Technology and Entertainment, everyone Love's a Song!

But, within I was confused, before I could understand;

Apparently I was not following, the things that God had planned...

So, I hid in the darkness, of Drugs and Alcohol;

It was a fun run while it lasted, but the fun would take it's fall!

And despite breif successes and travel, elbowing with Stars in my craft;

Nobody saw my Demons, it was me to have the last laugh.

So, I looked around and said a Prayer...what will you have of me;

Dusted myself off, had my last cough, and pursued what He saw me to be!

It wasn't easy at first, but I caught on with given time;

And instead of worshipping other's, my God gave me Rhyme.

The waste of time and friendships, the agony of feeling remorse;

What exactly was I doing, how did I get this far off course?

Time has a way of diluting pain, yet the actions never go away;

I could say all the Prayers in the world, clean the slate for another day.

But oddly, I wouldn't trade my experiences, I accept of who I am;

And thankfully there were a few special people who actually gave a Damn!

But all in all, my belief in my abilities, that miraculously guided me through;

Leaving me with a back load of projects, so many things to pursue.

Although the majority of my Family, are now sitting with God;

I'm sure they're pleased and forgive me, I'm sure they're giving a nod.

And my reality is focused, these truths have made me a believer;

It's a daily challenge to avoid, playing with the Master Deceiver...

And to know that when my time comes, I'll be in good company, I won't be alone;

But will be standing along side of God, when it's time for Him, to start Calling Me Home!

Kirk Carter

4/25/2016

Elements Of Kirk